July 14, 2022 = 9:58pm - 10:52pm
The remedy to pestilence is persistence.
Training today was unremarkable. We went over a long number of quality and organizational points during presentations today, which nearly put me to sleep, not to slander my company. Our tour over the East plant was rather unique compared to the last two - the plant was hardly as labyrinthine as the South Plant, and it wasn't as slow of pace as the North plant, but it had an unplacably peculiar layout... I'm glad I'm not going to be working in the East plant anytime soon, I genuinely cannot handle the heat being produced throughout the entire building, not to mention you couldn't even be near anything without ear plugs. Aside from the negatives, the people there seemed the nicest of all, and were usually eager to show us what they were doing.
What's up with my eldritch subtitle? Well, I had a conversation with a buddy of mine regarding the state of 1.6, its mod team, its playerbase, and its very stubborn owner that made me so furious that I felt compelled to do something about it. I asked Cyl for a promotion to admin, and when it was met with the mile-afar prediction of "Umm... No... Sorry", I begged her to re-evaluate her admin team and attempted discussion about increasing playerbase activity within the server. I kept advocating for a number of different ideas, from staff team transparency to straight up taking over her position, but her "depressive" whining about "no I dont like this" and "I dont really like 1.6 anymore" kept making me feel ever frustrated. After our whole discussion/argument, I wrote up a list of all potential ideas that we could consider, and tomorrow morning I plan to post a google form to our announcements for everyone to vote for ideas they'd like to see implemented into the server, so I FORCE Cyl and the rest of our mod team to get off their asses and change some stuff around.
Currently, our active playerbase barely reaches 20 (most of which are veteran creators), level creation rate is sub-100 per month, and level rating is hardly in the double digits. As it is evident, I am very passionate about the 1.6 GDPS, so it bothers me greatly that our mod team, our admins, and ESPECIALLY our "leader" don't want to do anything to bring the server out of the darkest age we've been in in forever. Our mod team is notoriously lazy when it comes to rating levels or maintaining/developing ideas we come up with (such as the demonlist expansion, event team hosting creator contests every month, and uploading more frequently to the Official 1.6 GDPS YouTube Channel), and it's of course lead to zero growth of the server whatsoever. My buddy and I are two of the last vehemently active creators 1.6 has left, and we want to see change so badly.
I absolutely do not feel bad skulldragging our mod team through the fact of their laziness - I followed my anger up with taking the reuploader program that was recently finished and reuploaded EVERY SINGLE request for reuploading levels to 1.6, and sent every single one of them that was rateworthy just to stick it to them that they have not been doing their jobs. They actually sent a bunch of them after I did that, so I'm clearly getting my message across.
As far as creativity goes for today, I bugfixed my old levels Macjacko Crimas, 6969, and Skill Issue II. Skill Issue II was a matter of optimizing the 3rd part, as 15,000 objects over 10 seconds makes the APK absolutely crap out on itself. I wittled that part down to 8,500ish objects, which is much more playable. I reuploaded each of these, so it's a waiting game to see these levels rated. I wonder if I beg enough, I can get admin just to rate all my levels and all the other ones being sent.
After all my ferocity today regarding the 1.6 GDPS and mediocrity playing Chess today (I guess I did have some fun today...) I feel rather empty still, as though I haven't changed a whole lot since I left home. Since Punisher got finished, I don't find the appeal of finishing Death Metal at the moment, nor really doing anything computer related for a while. My father had called me earlier, and among some conversation regarding medical stuff and my hotel room, what stuck out to me was that I can have one of two experiences out here: I can stay confined in my four walls and make that my entire experience out here, or I can go out into Colorado and go driving around, seeing new things, and going exploring. I still feel somewhat upset with myself over that, as I genuinely haven't gone out and explored a whole lot, contrary to the goals I set for myself... I'm making a promise with myself to go out searching for places to explore, and to find a guitar shop that sells strings to replace the broken one on the guitar I brought out here with me.
My phone call with my dad - we talked in depth about his concern over my health. I tend to have a hard time waking up in the morning such that I'd rather fall back asleep or have trouble staying standing up in my morning showers. I tend to want to fall asleep an hour or two after eating lunch or nearly immediately after being exposed to high temperatures (such as after every tour I've been on, I've wanted to fall asleep the moment I got back to my room, and even on the drives home I felt very confused, anxious, and not thinking straight). I drink an absolute shitton of water during the day, sometimes I feel to the point where I give myself acute water poisoning. If I'm having a confused/dizzy spell, I can near-immediately return to a sharp mind by eating something something with sugar/carbs in it like a peanut butter and jelly sandwich or any good-size meal. After venturing through extra exercise, anti-depressants, cutting OUT sugars, and trying to eliminate any other possible medical conditions, I maintain as of a couple months ago that I am hypoglycemic, where I don't have enough sugars in my blood to keep me going for a long period of time. This would explain why it's difficult to wake up in the morning and stay sharp throughout the day, as my blood sugar would dip at night or after a day of activity, and my body would struggle to regulate itself until I ate something to replenish those sugars. What trips my dad up about me being hypoglycemic is that I'm not diabetic (though, multiple fasting blood sugar tests I took showed frequent pre-diabetic blood sugar levels), and hypoglycemia doesn't explain the headaches I have (though, my outdoor allergies certainly can). My dad thinks if it's not hypoglycemia, it may be a pituitary gland tumor that may be messing with me, explaining the headaches. Through my own research into these though, I don't really experience any of the symptoms characteristic of any of the types of pituitary tumors. My dad is recommending me to find a doctor in my local area, though I'm reluctant to reach out because I'm a bitch when it comes to talking with people or wanting things for myself. Par for the course...
On the bright side... I got the couple photos uploaded to my site from the other day. =:)